This week has been crazy busy. I forgot how stressful school is and how much time homework takes. I am really excited for tomorrow because I am headed to the Twin Cities to go to a mosque. This will be a great experience for me to prepare me for Turkey this summer.

I have been eating really healthy lately. For the past 3 months I have been having stomach problems. The past couple days I have been watching what I eat and my stomach has been feeling better! Now I eat like 5 small meals a day. I also have been drinking A LOT of water. I love spring and summer because I get fresh fruit! Obsessed with raspberries at the moment!

I promise I am back :) I just wasn't thinking about blogging the last couple of days. Posting what I wore today as it is (hopefully) the last time I will be dressing for the cold. It was very cold and windy today. After beautiful weather for the past two weeks it was quite a shock when I walked out the door this morning. 

 This is what I wore today. My shirt and scarf are from H&M and my jeans are from American Eagle. 

I got these shoes on sale in the kids section at Target but told myself I wouldn't wear them until all the snow was gone so that I wouldn't ruin them! Well all the snow is gone and I am now in love with these shoes. Yay to my shoe obsession!

Behind me in these pictures is my wall of pictures. I put this wall up so that every morning while getting ready I would see the people that are most important to me. I really love the memories all of the pictures bring back. Constant reminders of where I have been. 

uhh ohh

So I did an oops... I forgot to post. An amazing boy ended up coming back to school early to spend time with me so I wasn't really thinking about posting. An update on my life... The boy I mentioned and I had been having some troubles. This was really keeping me down because I knew that I still really liked him, he just didn't think he felt the same. Things have changed thanks to his friend. She sat him down and told him that he needed to get back with me before he lost me. She saw that he still cared about me. He followed her advice because he realized he does want to be with me. It just took someone else pointing out the way he smiled when we talked. So boy and I are back together, hopefully with no more troubles :)

holding strong

I am nannying over night tonight and forgot to post before I left this morning! Whoops! Lately I have been really happy, but I miss being home. There are moments when I wish I had stayed in Minnesota for school just so I could be closer to everyone there. I was just getting into a routine at home and then I moved here. I am searching for my place here but it is hard. So my picture for today won't be happening, I'll post an extra tomorrow :)

I am obsessed with shoes. Especially Minnetonka Moccasins. They are unbelievably comfy and go with almost everything. I have 6 pairs of these moccasins. Proof...

The white and purple ones have been my favorites in the past :)

Busy yet relaxed day today. I had to nanny this morning. After that I came back to my room, got ready for the day and went tanning. Then I ran some errands and got some more groceries!
I know that tanning isn't the best thing for my skin, but I feel so much healthier when I am tanning. Another reason that I am tanning now is because I know I wont get much of a tan in Turkey as I am not allowed to wear shorts or tank tops.
Once I came back from running errands I cleaned my room. After I sprinkled carpet cleaner all over my room I discovered that the vacuum for our room has a broken belt. So I had to vacuum the whole room using the hand hose. I love cleaning because it makes me feel so organized :)

The picture for today is from after my cleaning spree. I got rid of all of the clutter that was on my windowsill and added some pictures of friends! I am also so excited because of how green it is outside!!

is this how i'm supposed to feel?

It is my spring break week, but I only got to spend three nights at home. I only got to sleep in my bed one night as my mom and I took a short trip down to Iowa. It was so great to see my family. I miss them so much and wish I were closer so I could spend more time with them.
I had to come back to school yesterday because I have to nanny this week. Although it is a bummer that my break was cut short, I need all the money I can make right now. I am saving for my trip to Turkey!

I am going to start something new on my blog. In order to remind myself to savor the little things in life, I am going to post a picture a day. I bought a new camera a couple months ago and haven't taken more than 20 pictures. I want to start taking more pictures so I have more to look back on in the future.

I went for a walk this evening. By myself, through the woods. Loved every moment of it. 

It is officially spring! I slept with my window open and woke up to the birdies chirping! Now going to eat some breakfast and go for a run. There are two classes standing between Spring Break and I. Today couldn't be any better :)

you found me

So much happiness. I have decided I want to be nothing but happy. I have started running again and signed up for an intramural soccer team! Can't wait to get back to soccer, I have missed it so much. Running is such a great break from life. Just loving my mood right now :)

looking up

I am back at school. Had a great weekend at home, other than the funeral.

Another image that is helping me through...

I am headed back to school today. A lot has changed in he past week. But I am determined to push through and make it work out for me. I booked my flight to Turkey yesterday and I cannot wait to be there.

Just a quick image that is helping me right now...

My mind is racing. So much to think about.

These thought don't include the 6 page paper I have to write by Sunday about the geography of Iran.
So many more important things to think about.

home.

I am home. I had a rough week so I decided to skip out of classes a bit early and head home to my family. One of my really good friends dad died on Monday, so that is taking a toll on me. Just two weeks ago a girl I graduated high school with died in a car accident. It has been a time of mourning. 

So yeah, I am home. I needed to be home. I needed to clear my head. I needed to rediscover myself and my happiness. 

Best I ever had.

It has been such a good day! Finally figuring out my plans for Istanbul this summer! Trying to get the cheapest flight booked has proved to be very stressful, but I want to save as much money as possible. I have been really productive the last day. Homework is a daunting task, but I am getting it done! I have a lot on my mind these days. I recently moved into a new dorm, so I am still in the process of adjusting to that, as you can tell by the mess of clothes behind me.

This is my natural hair, it is so crazy sometimes!

Lately I have been really motivated to start stepping up and making a difference. I still don't know what I want to do with my life but I do know one thing: I want to help those that need it. That has been my life goal for quite awhile and I fully intend to do it. Below are some of the quotes that are inspiring me right now.  

I'm back!

Totally forgot I started this a year ago. I am back and will be blogging regularly!

There have been many changes in my life in the past year. I decided to go to school in Wisconsin, which was a good decision. Although it can get boring here, I love the school! I have an amazing boyfriend, he treats me like his princess and I couldn't be any happier. I have been so happy with my life, even though it is not what I had planned. I am studying abroad in Turkey this coming summer and can't wait! I have been nannying and babysitting often to help pay for my trip!

Don't say goodbye.

Today was another freezing cold day, but thankfully no fresh snow! I knew I would need to layer so I have a skirt on under my top. I had class this morning which was a bore, and then had to work all afternoon. I suppose I should tell you where I work, as all you know is that it is retail. I work at a teenage and young adult consignment shop. For those of you that live in the states and would know the name, I work at Plato's Closet. It is so cheap, and my employee discount makes it even cheaper. I buy all of my clothes there, I just cannot justify spending full price.

I am currently struggling to decide where I want to go to college next year. I have been accepted to three colleges, and am waiting for one more decision. My big dilemma is if I want to leave Minnesota or not. Oh well, I'll figure it all out eventually!

I am gonna say this now just for the record, I hate guys. No guy ever stays the same. Gahh! I have such strong feelings right now! Even though I hate starting things with guys, I am currently starting something. Well, wish me luck!

Don't make me.

So today it snowed another 3-4 inches. I am beginning to dislike the snow, we have gotten so much this year! Figured I needed some tall, semi-waterproof boots with knee high socks and two pairs of tights to stay warm. I love this dress, it is the perfect color and is made of Cupro and Rayon so it has a great texture. I got it at work and the designer is Ella Moss.

The snow made the drive into my college quite the trip. Normally the drive is only 25 minutes, but today it took me an hour and a half! Traffic is horrible for me because I end up getting so bored just sitting there.

Well, I am off to do more homework. I registered for five classes this semester!! EEKK! I always have hours of work to do. I am taking Anthropology of Religion and it is kicking my butt! I have so much work to get done, but the class is really interesting so it is worth it.

remembering sunday

Well, it was an interesting weekend.  Friday was my 18th birthday, celebrated that night with some friends. Also got my belly button pierced which was an adventure! The only problem is that I can't wear my high-waisted skirts or my tights while the piercing is healing because they irritate it!
Saturday night I had to babysit. Then Sunday I just sat at home and did all my homework, laundry, and cleaned my basement. A relaxing day was just what I needed.

Today I realized that my life is mine to live. No one can control me.
Why should I let people bring me down? Who cares what other people think about me?
I am myself, individual, my own person, and I am beautiful.
I just wish everyone would have this revelation. I feel free at last.

Meaning.

Okay so, let's start with the basics...
My name is Jessie.
I live in Minnesota, it is practically arctic here currently. Minnesota is a love hate with me, somedays I love it here, other days I just want to leave.
I am currently 17, but turn 18 in 26 days! In a way I am excited, I mean it is like the official start of my life, but I am also scared because I have to clue what I want to do with my life.
I currently attend a community college even though I am technically a high school senior.  Going to a community college was the best decision I have ever made.  I hated high school because I can't stand drama. 
Like I have already said, I have no clue what I want to do with my life.  I do have a few ideas though. I love working with people, especially those who really need my help, leading me to want to go into Social Work.  I also love using my brain and excel at math and science, leading me to want to go into Chemistry. But just this past year I have really started to love writing.  My Freshman Composition teacher was very impressed with my writing and suggested I register for a Creative Writing course at the college, so I did.  We will see where that takes me!
I am spiritual. I am still trying to figure out exactly what God means in my life, but I have a pretty good idea.
My family is very important to me.  I have one younger sister.  Sometimes we get along, sometimes we don't.  Since I do not go to my high school, I do not have many friends from school, although I do have a few from my college. 
I love my job.  I work in retail.  Since I got this job my closet has drastically expanded.  I have gotten to the point where I have to get rid of something for every new thing I get.  My style has also changed immensely.  I used to be the type of girl who would walk around in sweatpants and Ugg boots, but that isn't me anymore.  I am always dressed up. I will show some of the outfits I wear on here, just so you get an idea.

This blog is mainly going to be about me trying to decipher who I really am.